Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Annual Health Physical...

I went for my annual physical last week. My doctor gave me a card to call in for my results after the 30th but on a whim I called last night to see if she left a message. Everything was good with two exceptions. My kidney function level was right at borderline so I was instructed to drink more water. There was also one liver enzyme that was slightly elevated. She wants me to come back in a month to test those again. She's moving to a new practice so I'll be making the appointment today at the new location to make sure I get on the schedule. I've never had any issues with my kidneys or liver before.

One thing I do know is stress manifests itself physically and this has been a blessed but stressful year with issues at work, plumbing issues with my condo, financial and liquidity strain and trying to build a new relationship long distance. I've done my best to juggle everything, pay everything, make strategic moves and take care of everything and everyone's needs. I am blessed beyond measure so I want to make that clear. I'm just so tired. Tired of trying so hard, sacrificing and knowing in my heart that it's still not enough. I've got to take better care of myself mentally, physically and spiritually despite the goals and  challenges ahead. 

I came home last night to nothing. An empty house. How many years have I done that now and felt utterly alone? I'll stay in my place through the year. If there is no indication that things in my personal life are changing in the near term, I'll sell my place for a loss or rent it out and move home with my parents. Not ideal but I'd have some company and I would be able to free up cash flow to accelerate debt payments and put myself in a better financial situation.  

Hope you guys have a good day. Thanks for reading. 

4 comments:

gonna_make_it said...

I didn't realize how lonely and miserable I was living alone until I moved in with my boyfriend. I grew up in a family of 6 so I was used to always being around people but I do like my own space. My own space being as simple as my own bedroom. everything else can be shared.

Don't give up! You have come so far.

Chitown said...

@ Gonna Make It - Exactly. I only need so much alone time and then I want some company. I won't give up. I can't give up. It's not in my make-up. =)

Tammy said...

Hang in there :) Life gets tougher as you grow up but it happens to everyone, and you seem like a strong person so please keep at it and keep posting updated on this blog.

Chitown said...

@ Tammy - Thanks for reading. Once I got my phone working again, I was able to start posting. I'm not going anywhere any time soon. Lots of work to do on this journey. I hope you continue to read and leave a comment here and there. I love communicating with readers and getting their opinion.